Chemo - The Roller Coaster Ride

Yesterday we brought Drew home from the hospital. Everyone was so excited to have him home. We had a normal dinner together as a family, and then the roller coaster hit the bottom of the hill. Drew felt hot so I took his temp. It was 101.1, which meant back to the hospital. They started him on antibiotics and are waiting to see if the fever subsides. They will check his counts, which will help determine when he can come home. If his counts are low they will keep him, until they show signs of rebounding.

It has been a very difficult couple of days for us. This is just such a roller coaster ride, and I wish we could get off. Last night Jack told me he was scared that Drew needed eye drops (his understanding of medicine). He started to cry and said he missed his Daddy and Brother. He asked if Drew could come home. It is so hard for him to understand. I just held him last night and we both cried. I cried for Drew and Jack. I wish with all my might I could fix this for both of them. Poor little Drew is being so strong and fighting so hard. He is getting tired and woren out from this process. He looked very pale and sick last night. He would just hug me tight and whine. If I could take the pain for him, I would in a heart beat. Somethings in life are not fair, and this is one of them. There is a saying that "God doesn't give you more than you can handle". How much does one family have to handle? I hope we have reached our max, because I don't think we can handle much more. Tony and I are very exhausted emotionally and physically. Please pray for things to get better. We could use the prayers right now.